Last night I was sitting on my bed getting ready to go to sleep, for a first it was 11:30, which I think is the earliest I've gone to bed all year, BUT then I looked down on my floor. What did I see? 19 Minutes just sitting there, I hadn't read it in awhile so I thought it was a good time. I ended up finishing the whole thing... all 137 remaining pages. I'm not even sure what I should say about the ending, I'm still so shocked. The ending makes zero sense to me and it honestly makes me mad thinking about it. Anyways, the book ended with Josie confessing that she had been the one that killed Matt instead of Peter??? At first I actually wanted to hurl the book across the room, go to sleep, and pretend I just never read that book. But of course I started thinking about it and I guess I've started to understand it a little better.
Throughout Josie's younger years she had been best friends with Peter who was labeled a "nerd", a "freek", and a "queer". When she was in about 7th grade she became friends with the popular girls and in 9th grade Matt Royston, the popular varsity hockey player asked her out. Her life completely changed. Josie wasn't like the other popular kids but she needed so bad to fit in that she left Peter standing in the dust alone to fend for himself against the bullies. As Josie said, she wasn't strong or brave enough to be friends with Peter. I do believe that Josie and Matt loved each other. Even though Matt was verbally and physically abusive to Josie and to many others, I think that she loved him, but most of all she saw Matt as a way to be popular. There's a passage from the book that says that Josie loved Matt but she hated that she loved him. I think that she was just under so much pressure she saw shooting Matt as an escape from him, the peer-pressure, and even as a way to show Peter that she was sorry and was still deep-down inside his friend. I don't think that shooting Matt makes Josie a cold hard criminal, I think that she was just a confused girl who spent all her energy trying to be someone she was not and trying to impress everyone. I've read four of Jodi Picoult's books so I understand that her endings are extremely surprising and meant to make the reader think beyond the words on the page. This was the second best book I've ever read, the first being My Sister's Keeper. As much as I love this book I can't help but hate it at the same time. I guess this shows that not all stories end with happy endings.